And recently, I met up with Berlicial, had sushi buffet for dinner and Bugis after that. It's been a long time since I went out with her. Bought one shorts after walking around the whole street, while she bought one dress. Went to TCC to chill out ~ After that, headed home (:

And last sat, being called out by sist, went to bugis to have our dinner settled with baby. Went the whole of street and finally met up with her after so long. (: Went to sing while waiting for the clique to arrive and I could see that baby was boring :/ Home around 5plus in the morning, rest day on Sunday! :D

Been away for quite some time, so I'm back to blog, hehe. Busy meeting my girls and dating with my boy and not forgetting spending time with my fam. Went to Bishan to visit the lil cheeky girl and meeting my cousin love for dinner to satisfy my craving. Had a awesome catchup with her as I know she miss me much too. Recently been in love with Starbucks. (: 

hehe, my love! (: 

This cheeky girl, the only girl who will brighten up my day.

And not forgetting meeting my bbg every thurs as she has the more time after school. ^^ Never fail to be happy seeing her even before that, I'm really upset. Attending lectures with her in her school. Awesome much having this weekly dating with her. Ask me, do I love her? Yes, I love her. 

One of the days, went to bishan to accompany the cheeky girl, together with baby. And he played with her quite awhile, while I update Aunty Doris about everything in life, hehe. And what's more best is I get to eat beancurd that she made ^^ And she just recently passed me many bowls of it ^^After that, went to Plaza Sing to meet Brother and Deary. Slacked around Dhoby Ghaut and we walked to ComeBuy bubbletea. 

And steamboat with fam for mother's day at macpherson area, hehe. Awesome much, Went home awhile and off to amk to meet deary first before meeting the guys for movie. Caught 'Dark Shadows' movie, wasn't that nice. Burger King for supper! (: 

Future, I can't see. But why?

Hm, this might be wordy post, so if you dont want read it, can close it (: 

There's so much to say, My future, I can't see. But why? Beginning of the year, everyone ask me, What's your resolution for this year? My answer will be 'Studying. Yet, every now and then, everyone ask me, What are you doing?, my answer will be 'Nothing' . But who knows the fear behind every answer, 'Nothing'. It is not easy on me, not studying and working as well. The fear of being jobless and schoolness. I have the fear in me. Everyday, I've been asking myself, What am I doing now? Why am I hanging on the rope for so long? To be honest, I miss school. But firstly, who can I turn to? Who will pay for my fees? Even my aunty is willling to pay for my school fees, I have the fear in letting her down. And now my mom nags at me for nothing. 

Guess you don't even know yours words can't be heard at all. All are so heartbreaking, You blame me for sleeping late and not waking up early for school. But I told you, no matter what, I will go school in the morning. But you are angry, and ask me to quit. I listened and quitted school. Now you don't know that your decision had made me hanging on the rope for nothing, and blame me for nothing. Tell me, who can I turn to in my lowest point of time? When I really breakdown and cry. You scolded me, crazy. What does that mean? You don't even bother to ask me what happen and first word from you was 'Crazy" Tell me, how am I suppose to feel? All I can do is secretly cry in the room, leaving no concern from you. I used to be so close you, talking about what I did in school during the secondary school days. But now? What's wrong? Everytime you angry with me, you wanted me to move out, now that I did, you blame me again. Seriously, I don't know what you want. I listened and did what you told me, and getting all the blames. So does that mean you love brother more than me? Yes, you showed you love him more than me. And I feel no love in the family. But what I want is actions more than words. Everyone said you love me, but what I saw is heartbreaking scene. No one saw what you did to me and side on you. What is this? When its comes to you, I feel so heartpain, close myself up and not telling you anything. Every friend of mine, told me, after all is your mom. But who knows, what you did to me. No one. The actions in front of them is totally different from only me in front of me. You don't know how much your words have affect my whole life and hurt me, Guess you never get it from anyone at all. Those pain, those heartbreaks, tell me, who can understand? Tell me, who saw what you have done to me? I'm not blaming you for anything, but just saying out how hurt am I by you?